Well, another night when I sleep weird. I got to sleep fine with melatonin, although I had to take 2 3mg pills since one won't do the trick. Then I have to take a Xanax even though I hate doing it. But nighttime is the time I'm most anxious and stressed out for some reason. Still, I slept fine at first, then I wake up (as usual) and can't get back to sleep. I woke up just before 3 and it's now almost 5am. Sucks because I don't get enough sleep as it is, and that's supposed to help my recovery. It's also good to wake up at the same time every day, but like that's going to happen when I've only gotten 4 hours of sleep. Then I'm groggy all day. I guess I should say that I have bipolar II, so I don't have the kind of mania where I can get by on less sleep, or when I'm euphoric and happy. I tend to be irritable and impatient with people and my racing thoughts keep me awake, along with anxiety. I should at least say that on the Lamictal I haven't been as depressed, and even when I'm manic it doesn't seem to be as bad as before. Still, I'd like it if I could get a decent night of sleep. Well, when I'm depressed I can hardly stay awake and that's not good either. I just want my sleep cycle to normalize and I can get on with my day without feeling wiped out and exhausted. Plus, I'm having difficulty motivating myself to do normal things. Like, sometimes I can't make myself brush my teeth or take a shower. I haven't vacuumed since we moved into the new place, which hasn't been that long really, but long enough that I need to vacuum pretty badly. So, I don't know if I'm having a mixed episode and not just complete mania or depression. Then again, all the drugs they give me cause fatigue, so I don't know how I'm ever supposed to have any energy. Ugh.
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This has been a week where I have been unable to get to sleep and I wake up both during the night and earlier than usual. Plus I was very cranky, temperamental, and disinterested in things and guests(that came over).
I noticed it this week, and the heavy head or headache I had. The feeling in the templeswas that of a headache, a slow dull pain.
I think my Abilify is starting to add up in my system. My crankiness ahs either to do with depression, a downward wave in the old mood cycle, or, simply, lack of sleep.
But what causes the lack of sleep? That is the question.
You are not alone kemosabe!
Andrew
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I have the same problem. My sleep is all over the place.
My doctor asked me to keep a sleep journal for 2 weeks, and I'm on day 10. All I am really learning is that my sleep is all over the place, and although I average just over 8 hours of sleep, I am always exhaused.
There must be a better way.
I assume this sleep diary is just a waste of time, and she will just tell me to keep a more normal sleep schedule. But how?
You are not alone. I am writing this at 2:41 am.
My sleep last night was great. It was about 8 hours. And apart from the very weird dreams, involving a hick wedding that served Amway products, I woke up very rested.
So I started kissing my wife all over her pregnant face.
:)
Andrew
Good to hear I'm not alone. But if I get 10 to 12 hours of sleep, that still doesn't feel like enough. Plus, I feel like my anxiety is through the roof. I've been having such horrible nightmares that I keep waking up over and over again. If my neighbor's stereo didn't wake me up at 6 every morning, I'd sleep in. Ugh.
Did I ever ask you if you tried Abilify? I was on it, but I am so broke I cant afford it.
Seeing my pdoc tomorrow, so I will address this problem. FOr the past week I have certainly noticed an increase in restlessness and anxiety. Must be the lack of abilify.
Andrew
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Haven't tried Abilify. I'm on Trileptal (he's trying to reduce the dosage and get me off it because he's trying to switch me to another medication), Lamictal, Zoloft (also, trying to get me off of that one since, according to new research, that could be making me have episodes if I'm bipolar), and Geodon, which I have to get samples of because I can't afford it. As it is, I'm skipping doses of the Trileptal because I can't afford it and the Lamictal at the same time. I also don't want to be on too many medications at one time, so it may be that we try Abilify later if I'm not feeling better. We'll have to see. But I'll ask my doctor about it. Doubt I can afford it if you can't, though. I'm beyond broke. Still waiting to hear when I'll get my disability hearing for Social Security. Maybe then I'd have some money for my medications, although it's only $700 a month. It's not like I'll be able to get an apartment or anything. Hopefully it will only be temporary. (fingers crossed)
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